Demonstreren of niet?

7168_10200317032185772_38459867_nZe loopt door de straat, niet alleen, er waren velen die ook haar kant uitliepen, naar de dam, allemaal protesteren tegen de genomen maatregelen, de mensonterende en onbegrijpelijke maatregelen.
Weet dan niemand die het daarboven/in dat torentje die het dus voor het zeggen heeft, hoe het echt werkt, hoe het is? Het kan toch niet zo zijn dat als je het niet aan de lijve hebt meegemaakt je er dan dus niet over kan oordelen, of in elk geval op deze manier oordelen?
Wat een zakken, wat een oneerlijke gemene mensen zijn dat. Negeren en delegeren dat is dus ook een vak.
Maakt het ze echt niet uit, of hebben ze gewoon geen compassie, geen belevenis, zijn ze wel aanwezig, bewust?
Soms lijkt het wel of ze haar moeder hoort vertellen van de oorlog, hoe ontzettend bestial er is omgegaan met mensen, door mensen, die vinden dat ze hun best doen, als eerste willen opvallen om een betere opdracht te krijgen, of een klopje op de schouder van die man, die dit alles toen heeft teweeg gebracht, die was niet alleen, miljoenen mensen hebben hem geholpen, maar min of meer gedowngen, of anderszijds niet in staat er tegenin te gaan. Wat hebben we ervan geleerd??
Maar dat was toen, of is het ook nu, als er een moord wordt gepleegd krijgen sommigen een taakstraf, als je op school gepest bent worden de ouders verzocht het gepestte kind maar een paar dagen thuis te houden.
Dat is dus fout, heeft dan niemand door dat er zo een opvoeding/omgeving wordt gekweekt die ervoor zorgt dat je als je jong bent alles/zoveel mogelijk gaat negeren, welke kant moet je opkijken om te zien hoe het wel hoort/kan, kunnen we het tij nog keren? ALs je naar de tv kijkt niet, vreselijke hysterische shows, publiek en series. Uiteraard zijn er uitzonderingen, maar willen we niet liever dat juist die ”goede” uitzonderingen norm worden.
Ze is op de dam aangekomen, gelukkig zijn er velen die dit ook niet willen, dat zal toch wel iets helpen, in elk geval geven we hier een signaal af, denkt ze, want anders gebeurt er echt niks.


Ai Wei wei, one of the real people.

chinese artist and fighter for rights

Ai Wei Wei chinese artist and fighter for rights

Son of poet Ai Quing (1910-1996).

Date of Birth 28 August 1957, Beijing, China

Chinese filmmaker and dissident Ai Weiwei has been part of the jury for the International Film Festival Rotterdam giving the event a whiff of political protest. Ai  joined a jury that includes Russian screenwriter and filmmaker Sergei Loznitsa (“The Revue,” “My Joy“), Dutch director Kees Hin (“Shadowland“) and artistic director of the Seville European Film Festival José Luis Cienfuegos. The jury consists of another artist who has run afoul of a politically repressive regime –Iranian actress Fatemeh Motamedarya, who has been banned from acting in film, theater » But this man has so much more, he is a real figther for human rights, beginning with the chinese government itself, his father has been in jail and so he learned as a young boy what is different according to the rules in China or elswhere, he wrote blogs, till the chinese goverment closed it down, now he is twittering, which cannot be prbehitted by the chinese gv.

April 2011) Book: Ai Weiwei’s Blog: Writings, Interviews, and Digital Rants, 2006-2009. Translated by Lee Ambrozy. Cambridge, MA: MIT Press. ISBN-10: 0-262-01521-8


A documentary that chronicles artist and activist Ai Weiwei as he prepares for a series of exhibitions and gets into an increasing number of clashes with the Chinese government.

Quote wikipedia

Ai Weiwei (born 18 May 1957) is a Chinese contemporary artist, active in sculpture, installation, architecture, curating, photography, film, and social, political and cultural criticism. Ai collaborated with Swiss architects Herzog & de Meuron as the artistic consultant on the Beijing National Stadium for the 2008 Olympics. As a political activist, he has been highl and openly critical of the Chinese Government‘s stance on democracy and human rights. He has investigated government corruption and cover-ups, in particular the Sichuan schools corruption scandal following the collapse of so-called “tofu-skin schools” in the 2008 Sichuan earthquake In 2011, following his arrest at Beijing airport on 3 April, he was held for over two months without any official charges being filed; officials alluded to their allegations of “economic crimes” (tax evasion). In October 2011 ArtReview magazine named Ai number one in their annual Power 100 list. The decision was criticised by the Chinese authorities. Chinese Foreign Ministry spokesman Liu Weimin responded, “China has many arteing telephatic, which is neede t.o save earth, but first we need to save us, away with the violence, difference of social classes, nobody want and needs hunger, being shut up, or used as slaves, raped or killed for actually being cruel with eachother.

the first time outside of China, his photographs of his time in New York City from 1983 to 1993 were featured in a 2011 exhibition presented by Asia Society. The earliest photographs were from 1983, while he was living in the Williamsburg neighborhood of Brooklyn. In 1985, he moved to Manhattan’s Lower East Side, where he lived in two different apartments until he returned to China in 1993 to be with his ailing father. The exhibition included images of the poets Allen Ginsberg, Gu Cheng, and Bei Dao.The exhibition, showcasing 227 photos, opened on 29 June and lasted until 14 August 2011.The show moved from NY to Martin Gropius Bau in Berlin. In April 2012, with the participation of Martin-Gropius-Bau, Berlin, exhibition called New York. 1983-1993 opened at Multimedia Art Museum, Moscow. Another exhibition in 2011–12, Ai Weiwei: Dropping the Urn at the Victoria and Albert Museum, featured a selection of ceramic works including Coca Cola Vase and a pile of sunflower seeds. In his ceramic works Ai engages with issues such as the loss of historic material culture due to rapid modernization as well as broader themes including perceptions of value, mass production, globalization and the concepts of ‘real’ and ‘fake’

In summer 2012, Ai teamed again with Herzog & de Meuron on a “would-be archaeological site [as] a game of make-believe and fleeting memory” as the year’s temporary Serpentine Gallery Pavilion in London’s Kensington Garden.

On 4 October 2012, Ai premiered a new installation at the Art Museums of Bergen in Norway. His installation was a part of the exhibition “Real Life Stories”, also featuring nine other leading contemporary artists from China.

On 7 October 2012, Ai’s exhibit entitled “According to What?” opened at the Smithsonian Hirshhorn Museum and Sculpture in Washington, DC. He was unable to attend the opening in person because his passport was being held by the Chinese authorities, as part of his ongoing legal troubles. The exhibit showcased some of his art from previous exhibitions, including his work with Han Dynasty vases, and photographs of his time in New York and Beijing. The exhibit “Circle of Animals/Zodiac Heads”, that was previously on display in New York was also featured at the Hirshhorn and put on display in April 2012.

Awards and nominations.

2008 Chinese Contemporary Art Awards, Lifetime Achievement

2009 GQ Men of the Year 2009, Moral Courage (Germany); The Art Review Power 100, rank 43; International Architecture Awards for Tsai Residence, Anthenaeum Museum of Architecture and Design, Chicago, USA

2010 In March 2010, Ai received an Honorary Doctorate Degree from the Faculty of Politics and Social Science, University of Ghent, Belgium

In September 2010 he received Das Glas der Vernunft (The Prism of Reason), Kassel Citizen Award, Kassel, Germany.

Ai was ranked 13th in ArtReview‘s guide to the 100 most powerful figures in contemporary art: Power 100, 2010. Ai is now on top of ArtReview‘s guide to the 100 most powerful figures in contemporary art: Power 100, 2011. In 2010 he was also awarded Wallpaper Design Award Best New Private House for Tsai Residence.

2011 In December 2011, he was one of four runners-up in Time’s Person of the Year award. Other awards included: Wall Street Journal Innovators Award (Art); Foreign Policy Top Global Thinkers of 2011, rank 18; The Bianca Jagger Human Rights Foundation Award for Courage; The Art Review Power 100, rank 1; Membership at the Academy of Arts, Berlin, Germany; The 2011 TIME 100; The Wallpaper* 150; Honorary Academician at the Royal Academy of Arts, London, UK; and Skowhegan Medal for Multidisciplinary Art, New York, NY, USA.

2012 Along with Saudi Arabian women’s rights activist Manal al-Sharif and Burmese dissident Aung San Suu Kyi, Ai received the inaugural Václav Havel Prize for Creative Dissent of the Human Rights Foundation on 2 May 2012. In 2012, Ai was also awarded an Honorary Degree from Pratt Institute, honorary fellowship from Royal Institute of British Architects, elected as Foreign Member of Royal Swedish Academy of Arts, and recipient of The International Center of Photography Cornell Capa Award.

Beijing National Stadium

The Beijing National Stadium at night during the 2008 Summer Olympics

Ai was commissioned as the artistic consultant for design, collaborating with the Swiss firm Herzog & de Meuron, for the Beijing National Stadium for the 2008 Summer Olympics, also known as the “Bird’s Nest.”Although ignored by the Chinese media, he had voiced his anti-Olympics views. He later distanced himself from the project, saying, “I’ve already forgotten about it. I turn down all the demands to have photographs with it,” saying it is part of a “pretend smile” of bad taste. In August 2007 he also accused those choreographing the Olympic opening ceremony, including Steven Spielberg and Zhang Yimou, of failing to live up to their responsibility as artists. Ai said “It’s disgusting. I don’t like anyone who shamelessly abuses their profession, who makes no moral judgment. In February 2008, Spielberg withdrew from his role as advisor to the 2008 Summer Olympics. When asked why he participated in the designing of the Bird’s Nest in the first place, Ai replied “I did it because I love design.

Sichuan earthquake student casualties investigation

On 15 December 2008, Ai supported an investigation, started by another Chinese artist, into student casualties in the 2008 Sichuan earthquake. Called the “citizen’s investigation”, it aimed to compile a list of students killed in the earthquake by 12 May 2009, the earthquake’s first anniversary.

As of 14 April 2009, the list had accumulated 5,385 names Ai published the collected names as well as numerous articles documenting the investigation on his blog which was shut down by Chinese authorities in May 2009 He also posted his list of names of schoolchildren who died on the wall of his office at FAKE Design in Beijing.

Ai suffered headaches and claimed he had difficulty concentrating on his work since returning from Chengdu in August 2009, where he was beaten by the police for trying to testify for Tan Zuoren, a fellow investigator of the shoddy construction and student casualties in the earthquake.On 14 September 2009, Ai was diagnosed to be suffering internal bleeding in a hospital in Munich, Germany, and the doctor arranged for emergency brain surgery. The cerebral hemorrhage is believed to be linked to the police attack.

According to the Financial Times, in an attempt to force Ai to leave the country, two accounts used by him had been hacked in a sophisticated attack on Google in China dubbed Operation Aurora, their contents read and copied; his bank accounts were investigated by state security agents who claimed he was under investigation for “unspecified suspected crimes.

Shanghai studio controversy

In November 2010, Ai was placed under house arrest by the Chinese police. He said this was to prevent the planned party marking the demolition of his newly built Shanghai studio.The building was designed and built by Ai upon encouragement and persuasion from a “high official [from Shanghai]” as part of a new cultural area designated by Shanghai Municipal authorities; Ai would have used it as a studio and to teach architecture courses. But now Ai has been accused of erecting the structure without the necessary planning permission and a demolition notice has been ordered, even though, Ai said, officials had been extremely enthusiastic, and the entire application and planning process was “under government supervision”. According to Ai, a number of artists were invited to build new studios in this area of Shanghai because officials wanted to create a cultural area.

Like other activists and intellectuals, Ai was prevented from leaving China in late 2010. Ai suggested that the authorities wanted to prevent him from attending the ceremony in December 2010 to award the 2010 Nobel Peace Prize to fellow dissident Liu Xiaobo. Ai said that he had not been invited to the ceremony, and was attempting to travel to South Korea for a meeting when he was told that he could not leave for reasons of national security.

In the evening of 11 January 2011, Ai’s studio was demolished in a surprise move by the local government.

Other engagements

In 2011, Ai sat on the jury of an international initiative to find a universal Logo for Human Rights. The winning design, combining the silhouette of a hand with that of a bird, was chosen from more than 15,300 suggestions from over 190 countries. The initiative’s goal was to create an internationally recognized logo to support the global human rights movement.

2011 Arrest

South China Morning Post reports that Ai received at least two visits from the police, the last being on 31 March – three days before his detention – apparently with offers of membership to the Chinese People’s Political Consultative Conference. A staff member recalled that Ai had mentioned receiving the offer earlier, “[but Ai] didn’t say if it was a membership of the CPPCC at the municipal or national level, how he responded or whether he accepted it or not.”

On 24 February, amid an online campaign for Middle East-style protests in major Chinese cities by overseas dissidents, Ai posted on his Twitter account: “I didn’t care about jasmine at first, but people who are scared by jasmine sent out information about how harmful jasmine is often, which makes me realize that jasmine is what scares them the most. What a jasmine!

The caption (草泥马挡中央, “grass mud horse covering the middle”) to Ai’s self-portrait sounds almost the same in Chinese as 肏你妈党中央, “Fuck your mother, the Communist party central committee“.

On 3 April, Ai was arrested at Beijing Airport just before catching a flight to Hong Kong and his studio facilities were searched. A police contingent of approximately 50 officers came to his studio, threw a cordon around it and searched the premises. They took away laptops and the hard drive from the main computer; along with Ai, police also detained eight staff members and Ai’s wife, Lu Qing. Police also visited the mother of Ai’s two year-old son. While state media originally reported on 6 April that Ai was arrested at the airport because “his departure procedures were incomplete the Chinese Ministry of Foreign Affairs said on 7 April that Ai was arrested under investigation for alleged economic crimes. Then, on 8 April, police returned to Ai’s workshop to examine his financial affairs. On 9 April, Ai’s accountant, as well as studio partner Liu Zhenggang and driver Zhang Jingsong, disappeared while Ai’s assistant Wen Tao has remained missing since Ai’s arrest on 3 April. Ai’s wife said that she was summoned by the Beijing Chaoyang district tax bureau, where she was interrogated about his studio’s tax on 12 April.

Response to Ai’s arrest

Analysts and other activists said Ai had been widely thought to be untouchable, but Nicholas Bequelin from Human Rights Watch suggested that his arrest, calculated to send the message that no one would be immune, must have had the approval of someone in the top leadership. International governments, human rights groups and art institutions, among others, called for Ai’s release, while Chinese officials did not notify Ai’s family of his whereabouts.

State media started describing Ai as a ‘deviant and a plagiarist’ in early 2011. The China Daily subsidiary, the Global Times editorial on 6 April 2011 attacked Ai, saying “Ai Weiwei likes to do something ‘others dare not do.’ He has been close to the red line of Chinese law. Objectively speaking, Chinese society does not have much experience in dealing with such persons. However, as long as Ai Weiwei continuously marches forward, he will inevitably touch the red line one day. Two days later, the journal scorned Western media for questioning Ai’s charge as a “catch-all crime”, and denounced the use of his political activism as a “legal shield” against everyday crimes. It said “Ai’s detention is one of the many judicial cases handled in China every day. It is pure fantasy to conclude that Ai’s case will be handled specially and unfairly.”Frank Ching expressed in the South China Morning Post that how the Global Times could radically shift its position from one-day to the next was reminiscent of Alice in Wonderland

Tate Modern in London, home to Ai’s ‘Sunflower Seeds’ exhibition, put a large sign on their exterior that reads “Release Ai Weiwei”

Michael Sheridan of The Times suggested that Ai had offered himself to the authorities on a platter with some of his provocative art, particularly photographs of himself nude with only a toy alpaca hiding his modesty – with a caption『草泥马挡中央』 (“grass mud horse covering the middle”). The term possesses a double meaning in Chinese: one possible interpretation was given by Sheridan as: “Fuck your mother, the party central committee”.

Ming Pao in Hong Kong reacted strongly to the state media’s character attack on Ai, saying that authorities had employed “a chain of actions outside the law, doing further damage to an already weak system of laws, and to the overall image of the country.” Pro-Beijing newspaper in Hong Kong, Wen Wei Po, announced that Ai was under arrest for tax evasion, bigamy and spreading indecent images on the internet, and vilified him with multiple instances of strong rhetoric. Supporters said “the article should be seen as a mainland media commentary attacking Ai, rather than as an accurate account of the investigation.”

The United States and European Union protested Ai’s detention. The international arts community also mobilised petitions calling for the release of Ai: “1001 Chairs for Ai Weiwei” was organized by Creative Time of New York that calls for artists to bring chairs to Chinese embassies and consulates around the world on 17 April 2011, at 1 pm local time “to sit peacefully in support of the artist’s immediate release.Artists in Hong Kong and Taiwan demonstrated and called for Ai to be released.

One of the major protests by U.S. museums took place on 19 and 20 May when the Museum of Contemporary Art San Diego organized a 24-hour silent protest in which volunteer participants, including community members, media, and museum staff, occupied two traditionally styled Chinese chairs for one-hour periods. The 24-hour sit-in referenced Ai’s sculpture series, Marble Chair, two of which were on view and were subsequently acquired for the Museum’s permanent collection.

On 16 May 2011, the Chinese authorities allowed his wife to visit him briefly. Liu Xiaoyuan, his attorney and personal friend, reported that Wei was in good physical condition and receiving treatment for his chronic diabetes and hypertension; he was not in a prison or hospital but under some form of house arrest.

He is the subject of the 2012 documentary film Ai Weiwei: Never Sorry, directed by American filmmaker Alison Klayman, which received a special jury prize at the 2012 Sundance Film Festival and opened the Hot Docs Canadian International Documentary Festival, North America’s largest documentary festival, in Toronto on 26 April 2012.


On 22 June 2011, the Chinese authorities released Ai from jail after almost three months’ detention on charges of tax evasion. Beijing Fake Cultural Development Ltd., a company Ai controlled, had allegedly evaded taxes and intentionally destroyed accounting documents. State media also reports that Ai was granted bail takes on account of Ai’s “good attitude in confessing his crimes”, willingness to pay back taxes, and his chronic illnesses. According to the Chinese Foreign Ministry, he is prohibited from leaving Beijing without permission for one year.

In November, Chinese authorities were again investigating Ai and his associates, this time under the charge of spreading pornography. Lu was subsequently questioned by police, and released after several hours though the exact charges remain unclear.

In June 2012, Ai’s bail was lifted. Although he is allowed to leave Beijing, the police informed him that he is still prohibited from traveling to other countries because he is “suspected of other crimes,” including pornography, bigamy and illicit exchange of foreign currency.

In October, authorities revoked the license of Beijing Fake Cultural Development Ltd for failing to re-register, an annual requirement by the administration. The company were not able to complete this procedure as its materials and stamps were confiscated by the government

So Ai Wei Wei, thank u for being here and show ppl whats is happening, in ur country and also by writing blogs, books, u show what could be and is not, what should be and has been denied, show us how not to be, but the ones who have freedom of word, they should cherish it and more, they should use it more, to be of some importance for the rest, which cannot speak out, for the ones who are voiceless.

Lots of above was taken from other sources and i end with a quote, from an interview in 2006:

There are two things we are interested in with your urban work. The first concerns your thoughts about the contemporary city: what’s happening right now with Chinese urbanization? The second is the approach you take in your own urban interventions. I thought we could begin by talking about some of your recent projects. What made you start making work like that, what made you start documenting the city?

Ai Weiwei : It’s not exactly documenting. It has that function, but it has no documentary purpose. It’s not being used as evidence or testimony for anything, but rather to materialize our physical life, its condition in the moment. If you are in place A or on line A or line B, then that present there or that movement is simply as it is. We’re living in a constantly changing world and everybody sees it and knows it, but as an artist who is also involved in issues of design and urban planning, I always try to find a way to most efficiently capture what I call fragments, or very small pieces which carry the flavor or carry the essential meaning of the city. So it’s a very small effort that I have made, even if it looks quite massive in terms of the length of the videos, its just one section of a fact – the concrete world.

Catch it, if u can

Yep, catch it if u can, u need to get over this, so catch and put it away, take it to the bottom of ur experiencebox/mind in ur head, cover it with all the blankets u have, make it go away, vanish, disappear…but….like the picture above u see no people left, only their footsteps in the sand, like it is,  the print will stay for ever, till u sweep the sand, or water it and thats exactly what u have to do, sweep ur brains, water u mind, to give it more chances, changes, till u feel u will be able to handle or deal with ur feelings and thaugths.

How do u do that, some memories keep coming back, they look around the corner all the time and as soon u are a bit down, or someone reminds u in what way so ever, the memoire jumps at u, from its corner and enjoys the stay in the front of ur experiencebox/mind, it haunts u and make u get no sleep at all, even when its old and was crumbled to practically nothing….. it blows itself up, it comes loud and clear, u smell, hear and sometimes even see the experience like it happened yesterday….. people are able to hurt u in a horrible way, just for fun, or they are addicted or the want the power even when they have to make u feel very bad, some of them even like it that way.

How and why, i will never know, but getting hurt by people is the worst what can happen, so much worse if the occurring of feeling bad would exist just by accident, or wrong judgement, childish mistake. So why, does the person have no conscience, no limits or has he/she been hurt too and cannot handle that and just wants to do this to others, instead having to deal with him/herself?

Well i think i should feel good that i don’t know why people do this to each other, in stead holding back and i know for sure half of the harm and pain would be prevented if u are being raised the right way, ur surroundings shows u limits when u are a child and bad behavior,  guilt will be punished, so one learns.

Whatever ur experiences are, don’t get over it, don’t put it way, try to revive it, slowly, with all ur brains, tell urself u are ok and not the victim, the victim is the one who is going beyond and over the human limit, i know it sounds easy and seems foolish, but if u try it each day piece by piece, u get stronger and the responsible feelings about it will first walk aside u, untill u know u are not responsible and actually the hurter/the bad person will seem and later on be the poor one, just take ur time, tell urself u are right, ok and far more than the stupid guy/girl who is trying to bring u down, now u turn the role and in the end u are above it all, how long that make take, in the end u will, if u want to know some more about how to gain balance or see the real purpose of life, visit this website, maybe it will bring u some knowledge, or warmth:) and spiritual guidance.

To many people kill themselves, commit suicide, jump in front of a train, while in the end mostly u are able to get out of it, self-confidence is needed here and if possible someone aside u who understands, who shows u love, love,  words will ever be the same, understanding and love  will make u see, will maybe help u out, give it a try, get professional help, dont be ashamed, angry or demonstated, help urself in coming back to the life u had, the life where u felt good, made u move forward and want to be part of. Dont give it away and dont despair, it will not last forever, and sorry this sounds cruel, but after all its also in between ur ears, in ur mind, see that and the healing begins, u put the one who is making u crazy out of ur head, lame him/her and make it smaller so u will be able to deal with it, after all, u are worth it, dead is easy, life is not, but if u kill urself u will never know how fantastic it can be, what would happen to u and all the ones who love u will not have to grieve.. it will be in the same bad english as this blog, but anyhow u will understand:)

gulfnews : Awareness drive against illegally shipped animals

stuffed bear

gulfnews : Awareness drive against illegally shipped animals.


Dieren zijn er om hier op deze aarde te leven, ze zijn niet voor ons of van ons, dus niet smokkelen en vooral niet opzetten, brrrrrr………….dieren zijn dieren, mensen zijn beesten!


Animals are animals, humans are beasts……………..why do we smukkel animals or stuf them..horrifying.

Riffles, guns and wapons free, but not for the freedom, on the conterary………

Remember Oklahoma in 1995? or Ohio, Virginia 16th april where at least 30Image   ppl lost their lifes, its a constitunional right to have a gun and again the winning (winning in again a law for being able to have guns) ones are the yet minorety mostly white, somewhat older ppl, who dont belong anymore, they start to realize this and are loosing their feeling with the USA, they claim its the faullt off the blacks, the gays and immigrants, sounds familiar?, yep all over the world this becomes a problem, but nowhere are ppl allowed to buy giuns/wapons in for instance a yearmarket, like there are in states all over the USA, like Ohio, no background checks, anybody just buys lots of guns, weird….20 years ago the now older white ppl were not the minorety, the rightwinged Texans and any other state in the USA were the best example of having realised the American dream, now they feel slowly being pushed away, due to many other groups which raised their voice, actions and wishes.

In the Netherlands the law is u cannot own a gun or any wapon without a permit and very strickt background checks, one boy shoots some ppl last year in a shopping mole, the police has to defend themselves for the bad background check and the fact they actually knew he never had be permitted to have guns, or being a member of a shootingclub, because thats all one is able to do here with guns. become a memebr and shoot in special places created for these events, no where else. So in the Netherlands it is a real shock like the shoppingmoleshooting, not like the 17.000 murders in USa every year, apart from the mobkillings and the policekillings,

So why do these somewhat older, white ppl claim there rights from owning a gun, to be able to defend themselves against the goverment?, their neighbours, or their feeling to be someone, without a gun u are just a pebble, a chopstick, a fork, without the knife…….

Its even dangerous to proclaim rights according to own guns, some ppl even try to defend the democraty with it, while actually either it has nothing to do with democraty, nor with the socalled dream of America, where freedom is the big header.

Freedom of what? to be gay?, black, jewish, or immigrant, while everybody started as immigrant this is easy forgotten,  freedom is abig word and easy used as ideal…….money is the other header of the socalled dream of America,  but the system of money is dirty, it gives power to the wrong ideas, the wrong ppl and it holds down freedom more then it gives freedom.

Again i am content i live in Europe, not only because of the guns, but also because of the more realistic news, the freedom of getting to know what u want, mind me, 1200 chanals in the USA and no single one says what is actually happening, even CNN, somehow its a tirdworld cojntry with the poverty they have now, ofcourse there are very rich ppl and this is the point what is the American dream, get rich, without empathy for anything else, then u are one of the great, but dont look behind u, dont go far away, u might see the real truth, ppl are without homes, food and so on, who’s fault, their own ofcourse, they lost their jobs.wont be able to buy education for their spous and no healthcare… and then u are lost every way…..thats the American way too. Not much to dream anymore.

And to come back to the wapons, it does not make ppl free, it is no right, its not a defending tule, cause if everybody would be prevented to own a gun, nobody would have to defend themselves with guns……….and the actually dream of America would get one step closer to a real dream….less cruel, less treatening(hope i wrote that right), sorry if my english is not to good, i tried……….:)

I know this will be offending lots of american ppl, but i am aiming towards the ones who want to stay stiff, keep their importance in being free in having it all, no matter what they have to do for it, no matter how.

So why try to keep this law pro guns?… that has to do with the same powerfeeling, the macho, i really hope the USa will not going on in making killing a easy issue, but dont forget the money what has been earned by this wapons, did not Bush has a great commercial interest in wapons, one of the reasons he went into war, exept for the oil deals?

So the fight for the ppl who dont want this free waponlaw anymore is much heavier then we are able to imagine…….

Back again, but not the same……

How irritating when ur social surroundings are cut off due to the fact that ur laptop has been stolen, all together it took me a month to get it back to nearly normal, if u consider my assurance payed out, i ordered a new laptop and it has been delivered exactly a month later then the day the oher one have been stolen.

The losses has been counted, i lost about 1230 pictures, 230 documents, 240 scanned drwawings and paintings, all the contacts of my Stam-email, most urls and favorited websites, it is a disaster, so i will make back ups every few months of all i do on this laptop, but somehow i need to get starting up again, i dont have the same fire i had before, so i also lost the drive……..

Strange what happens the first 2 days/nites. u cannot sleep and think of all the items on/in the computer u lost, pictures, documents, i had to change all my passwords for my websites and facebook, linkedin, care2, google, twitter.

Somehow u feel cut off, i already dont work at the moment as my boss tries to ditch me, i miss my colleges, the work and the ritme of life which belongs to having to go to work for 40 hours a week.

But slowly u start to see through all this, u first feel more lonely,  the same time u know u are not more lonely as before, all what i did was feeling social as i blogged, twittered and was on facebook, does this mean whatever it makes one fee is it real or isn’t it?

So the first day i was able to really get social again i felt uncomfortable and strange, i have seen the other side, i have been really without any social life for a month, since work is out of sight for now, no online-thingies, only my mobile phone on which i have no internet-options and i still dont want that and yes i have been phoning more maybe then ever, because one needs to have some contact, at least i do.

But i discovered lonelyness is more a feeling then a fact, i know if u have friends, a partner, and maybe children lonlyness is a different issue, but when u are like me, living alone, with my youngest son, who lives in his own part off the house, u are alone often, yet not lonely, being alone is somehow beareble if u are able to share ur life like i do with a boyfriend who lives in another part of the country and sometimes we are together, which is maybe strange,, but also ok, we are both 60 and we cannot be together as long as i work/wait what will happen with me and he has to be in his own city for his income too, we both have had a whole/big part of life before meeting eachother and i know we could easy live together and we will when time comes and all the working and income issues will be solved. But the main issue is, u share ur life because u are together even when not always really in the same place.

I had simmelar experience when once i was very ill, i even died for 3 minutes, the yourney to the light was tremendous impressif, i will never be the same (or be afraid of death), it is a reward thats for sure, no earthly word is able to discribe it, anyway it was hard to leave it and go back to my body, i could not help it it just happend and i woke up falling back and feeling pain, allthough it took me 2 days to realise that

But this made me think about funerals, how many ppl would have been coming, how many ppl really will know me when i die next time, when u have no colleges, maybe due to retirement and family is vading, friends are death or are no friends no more, it kept me busy for 2 years till i could put it down and try to just live and let it be, like i did before and actually this is the thing, u are alone, u live with urself, maybe sharing ur life, body and mind, still u are the one who will go from this earth the same way as u came, alone.

Never will i wake up and get out of my bed same way as i did, somehow it gets u, u are aware of the fact ur body is able to let u down, fails u, it feels like ur innoncence is gone, same way it makes u richer, u have been there,  u know its really great and feels like homecoming in the house of love, so now i try to just live with it and move on, maybe somewhat less oppertunistic, but also more aware………

I have been asking all my life as many of u will have done, how is it, to die, how does it look at the other side, or even there is nothing when u die,  not for me, i always knew there must be some higher level, energy, most call heaven, i know it now and this gives me peace, but in the same time it makes me restless as it could happen any minute, u dont live forever and somehow thats what one feels when u have not had this experience………

So being cut off from all my activeties online it felt a bit same, maybe also due to being put aside by my boss, it is like isolation, allthough i have at least 5 girlfriends and sons, a partner and family, it still made me feel very lonely and again i will not be the same anymore, if only the thief could feel this too, what he actually took, the value is priceless of that laptop and he maybe got 150 euro for it…………..

TarotImagecard has been created by me…..its symbolic for life, a fight which u begin as soon as u are born, for some more heavy then for others…..


Dutch doctors kill patients at their homes – English

Dutch doctors kill patients at their homes – English*

Awfull lie *this is not true, ppl get badly informed this way, i saw that stupid usa man Santorum? telling this to his followers and ppl moaned when he told this really not true story, it has been torn out of range>  its a mobile team, but it will perform  only when the patient asks for it and no doctor want to do it and also it really has been found that the patient lives a life with no value at all, wait till u are laying there, diaper, breathmachine, food through tubes, awfull pain only waiting to die………… if your mother lives like that and u don’t live in the Netherlands she has to be helped till the machines break instead of the body….really life has sometimes lost, but machines keep u alive… its a moneymaker as well u know….. and the patient does not want to live like that a retarded plant….. it does not happen overnite, very strong indication needed as well as agreement of doctors, family…which is a drag sometimes because u maybe don’t want anymore, but still another wont agree…….pity the stupid Santorum started this very small window vieuw as well as gross lies


Human or Mutant, read and sign the petition.


pigs have no space and no life

pigs have no space and no life

Human or Mutant, read and sign the petition. <<click here

Lack of space and the artificial group structure imposed on intensively confined pigs can negatively influence social interactions. When pigs are sorted into new groups, fighting sometimes occurs, and although serious injuries or death are rare, they can result, especially when one pig is singled out by multiple aggressors.41 When space is limited, submissive and flight reactions may be less effective in the establishment of social dominance. In contrast, when given ample room, herds usually distance themselves, simply avoiding situations that would lead to aggression and thereby minimizing the frequency of antagonistic interactions.

Although animals in any type of production system can suffer from health problems, the dense population of closely confined animals in industrial operations facilitates the transmission of disease.For pigs in the fattening stage of production, respiratory and enteric diseases are common infectious disorders.

In fact, one veterinary text book notes that “under commercial conditions few pigs can be expected to reach slaughter weight without contracting some sort of respiratory lesion.” In contrast, another popular textbook notes that for pigs in their wild state, “diseases and parasites were almost unknown” due to the “roving nature” of naturally occurring pig populations. <I did not write this, but i think its major important to spread the news, if we dont humanize our behavior according how to optain our food, in meat, but also the polluting systems of growing vegetabels and fruit, with all the chemicals and gen-technics, we will become mutants, without any honor or goal for us and earth.

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Citaat lets try to become the humans we think we are, on top off the food/earthchain and really care for all we manage so badly now, u dont need to eat meat/fish every day, we dont need to see shows/zoo’s with animals, we dont need to capture animals, atually we should become more smart and live without food from abroad, meat which was packed up, caged and so on.

Stop the killing of Cape Town’s Baboons Petition

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