One 2013 coming up!!

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Pope Benedict  XVI attacked gay marriage during a Christmas speech Friday, calling  heterosexual marriage an “essential” part of the human experience.

Benedict’s remarks came during his greeting to the Roman Curia (the papal  court), Italy’s ANSA news agency reported.

The pope said God’s natural design of family was founded on the marriage of a  man and a woman, without whom “figures fundamental to human existence disappear:  the father, the mother, the child,” and without whom “essential dimensions of  the experience of being a person fall.”

Benedict’s comments came just about a week after he said publicly he believes  gay marriage could cause “serious harm to justice and peace.”

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The catholic church has soon forgotten pedophiles were pretty common during the fifthties and sixties, i was one of the victims, but in this case nuns took advantage of me, during the 7 months i was in a orphan-house lead by nuns, i was only 5 years.

So the pope thinks he knows it all and the church still silences about all the bad vibes they spread around during ages, misuse of power, loyalty, money, children, faith and conscious ppl.

But i think somehow the end of this is near, as is the end of misuse of they way money has been pushed upon us, banks will have to change their systems, or money is on its way out, ppl now already are more aware of using each others talent, time, help, knowledge and so on, i could give u tremendous examples, but that’s not the point now.

2013 that’s the point, the first year where more honesty will pay off instead lead to victimizing, firing, losing all, because u told the truth about businesses, means of dealing, politics, fabrication, safety, education, or anything which will open eyes, ofcourse this will take longtime, but as time goes faster so will getting the truth on top, the real value, more right views, but most of all towards a more environmental aware society.

The pope is not important after all, if u dont consider that, so is nobody except u and only if u are not egoistic, selfish, and prepared to widen ur window on the world, u will find out that its more important to be more for another, in be more present, in what u do or say and it will make u feel more part of the world we should have around us and the only way is, start with urself, u will see how soon others will either be content with that and make u feel more content, then there will not be a halt to it, its like a domino-string, one after another they make the other go.

Woman in many countries will be free of dominance because of religion believes and rules, like money all gets less important… why,? well because we have to get wiser, time is running out, earth will slowly take back what we took, nature will not be healthy enough, if we dont act, get aware and actually it does not matter where we start, because it will be like domino, one after the other items will come up and fall.

But 2013 is the first year, so it may well be or look like things are getting worse and for many it will, because first things will have to get to the bottom, that’s the way we live, the only way we know.

This indicates too that every year after that will somehow be better, but it will take 50 years before we will all know that and air, earth, water, insects and many natural issues will be at their lowest, helas.

Just be happy it finally will start, the beginning of a new mankind, more aware,  better and in the end easier living, with attention for life as it is, love, power, money, health, on regular basis, leveled up to each other, if u want to see/witness this, just act towards this and do lots urself, u will meet others doing the same.




Back again, but not the same……

How irritating when ur social surroundings are cut off due to the fact that ur laptop has been stolen, all together it took me a month to get it back to nearly normal, if u consider my assurance payed out, i ordered a new laptop and it has been delivered exactly a month later then the day the oher one have been stolen.

The losses has been counted, i lost about 1230 pictures, 230 documents, 240 scanned drwawings and paintings, all the contacts of my Stam-email, most urls and favorited websites, it is a disaster, so i will make back ups every few months of all i do on this laptop, but somehow i need to get starting up again, i dont have the same fire i had before, so i also lost the drive……..

Strange what happens the first 2 days/nites. u cannot sleep and think of all the items on/in the computer u lost, pictures, documents, i had to change all my passwords for my websites and facebook, linkedin, care2, google, twitter.

Somehow u feel cut off, i already dont work at the moment as my boss tries to ditch me, i miss my colleges, the work and the ritme of life which belongs to having to go to work for 40 hours a week.

But slowly u start to see through all this, u first feel more lonely,  the same time u know u are not more lonely as before, all what i did was feeling social as i blogged, twittered and was on facebook, does this mean whatever it makes one fee is it real or isn’t it?

So the first day i was able to really get social again i felt uncomfortable and strange, i have seen the other side, i have been really without any social life for a month, since work is out of sight for now, no online-thingies, only my mobile phone on which i have no internet-options and i still dont want that and yes i have been phoning more maybe then ever, because one needs to have some contact, at least i do.

But i discovered lonelyness is more a feeling then a fact, i know if u have friends, a partner, and maybe children lonlyness is a different issue, but when u are like me, living alone, with my youngest son, who lives in his own part off the house, u are alone often, yet not lonely, being alone is somehow beareble if u are able to share ur life like i do with a boyfriend who lives in another part of the country and sometimes we are together, which is maybe strange,, but also ok, we are both 60 and we cannot be together as long as i work/wait what will happen with me and he has to be in his own city for his income too, we both have had a whole/big part of life before meeting eachother and i know we could easy live together and we will when time comes and all the working and income issues will be solved. But the main issue is, u share ur life because u are together even when not always really in the same place.

I had simmelar experience when once i was very ill, i even died for 3 minutes, the yourney to the light was tremendous impressif, i will never be the same (or be afraid of death), it is a reward thats for sure, no earthly word is able to discribe it, anyway it was hard to leave it and go back to my body, i could not help it it just happend and i woke up falling back and feeling pain, allthough it took me 2 days to realise that

But this made me think about funerals, how many ppl would have been coming, how many ppl really will know me when i die next time, when u have no colleges, maybe due to retirement and family is vading, friends are death or are no friends no more, it kept me busy for 2 years till i could put it down and try to just live and let it be, like i did before and actually this is the thing, u are alone, u live with urself, maybe sharing ur life, body and mind, still u are the one who will go from this earth the same way as u came, alone.

Never will i wake up and get out of my bed same way as i did, somehow it gets u, u are aware of the fact ur body is able to let u down, fails u, it feels like ur innoncence is gone, same way it makes u richer, u have been there,  u know its really great and feels like homecoming in the house of love, so now i try to just live with it and move on, maybe somewhat less oppertunistic, but also more aware………

I have been asking all my life as many of u will have done, how is it, to die, how does it look at the other side, or even there is nothing when u die,  not for me, i always knew there must be some higher level, energy, most call heaven, i know it now and this gives me peace, but in the same time it makes me restless as it could happen any minute, u dont live forever and somehow thats what one feels when u have not had this experience………

So being cut off from all my activeties online it felt a bit same, maybe also due to being put aside by my boss, it is like isolation, allthough i have at least 5 girlfriends and sons, a partner and family, it still made me feel very lonely and again i will not be the same anymore, if only the thief could feel this too, what he actually took, the value is priceless of that laptop and he maybe got 150 euro for it…………..

TarotImagecard has been created by me…..its symbolic for life, a fight which u begin as soon as u are born, for some more heavy then for others…..



Moralety or Ethics, Fun and Sarcasm, the difference is not clear for all.

I cannot face it to go to work.

I cannot face it to go to work.

First i have to say, this is not personal, at my work mostly its ok, allthough some ppl should read this, but most of my colleges are a pack of good guys/girls:)

If something is funny cannot be judged, unless what has being said is harmfull, verbal violence and or sarcasm, cynism, which is actually a lack of compassion/empathy(hope this is rightly spelled).

Why are ppl, like so many at work busy with making themselves grow on pushing others down, if they are loud, many colleges laugh to weak to go against it.

I never understood the sarcastic and cynic ones dont seem to see or understand aend they are not popular but merely leader of the bad pack, while most of the pack are only to weak to take? distance of this negatif behavior.

So my conclusion is, the loud ones sound hollow, the pack is to weak and the others are the real ppl, the real colleges and hopefully able to keep the balans to positif vibes at work.

Why need ppl to hear themselves, why dont they put this energy in becoming a better person, are they blind, dont they know what a better person is, i doubt that, maybe raising is one of the  influences, or and meeting someone who likes to make jokes by using a weak point of someone else and then get used to this and start to do it too, which is even/proberly the only choice if u want to stay with that partner.

The question stays, why are we not able to make this person become an ile and so make him/her behave different to gain respect and companion, at work often the atmosphere is horrible negatif when a group of ppl join in gossip and negatif behavior, yet even the Pm/boss is not able or interested enough to go against this, maybe even dwell on the bad behavior and use it to keep all the workers ”at place”.

But i am sure it would be so much better for all when the bad apples would be picked out and if needed even complete cut out from work, so being an example for the others.

So power is not for the hard workers, the induviduals, or the real ppl, often it is the hollow sounds, the empty and loud ones who are the boss on the workfloor(hope this is an existing word in english) and when this is the case, dont make them important, dont howl along, dont ignore them, GO AGAINST IT, ask them which purpose they are acheiving, why they need to be negatif and sound so hollow, u will not be famous due to this, but at least u dont show respect and show them u are not willing to be bossed by a empy mind, or life. In the end u will be respected, maybe even by them.

Hey maybe u are one of the ppl who are urged by the need to put ppl down, please change, its better u change now and gain more fun at work, ir will take some time, but it is worth it. In the end u will get more respect by changing and u still are able to be funny, but in a funny way.

Just ask urself if it really feels good, even when u dont know how it feels to be a friendly joker, allthough a bit dirty fun and so on can be ok too, just not take advantage of weakness, or use unrespectfull language/words.

Ofcourse not many ppl who are the negatif critic ones will agnolish this or recognise? themselves inhere, still, know this, u dont get the good or best out of ppl, do u really want that and to all the howlers, ur even weaker then the empty/loud one, because u wont make the effort to go aginst or take? distance from them, if we want to be respected by others, we better be respectfull to others.

And this as last item, ur health is being attacked if u dont try to make the best of it at work, u are 40 hours or more busy a week to become more unhealthy when u have this situation/surcomstances? at work.

I apologize for any bad used english words, i really tried to choose the right ones, but my native language is dutch, so dont blame me to much:) the ?words? are doubtfull words, but i dont know the right one.